A fresh start.

Here it goes, everyone counting from 5, 4, 3, 2, 1 and.. Happy New Year!! & everyone cracking up some noises for some goodluck, greeting everyone a happy new year while watching the fireworks display outside. It's a new year everybody! & It's a fresh start for all of us. Forget the bad times & remember the good times. For me, it would be kind of difficult to forget about the bad times. Especially, to a girl that has gone through lots. But yeah, life goes on and there are things that we just need to accept & be happy about. This year I just want to change for the better, and start being more happy about everything instead of worrying about a lot of things too much. I remember Audrey Hepburn saying, "The most important thing is to enjoy your life - to be happy - it's all that matters. " I absolutely agree with that, so this year to be happy is definitely what I want to accomplish. If there are things that makes you feel down, remember that we are given two choices, the choice to be happy or the choice to be completely sad about it & I choose to be happy. Well, I hope this will be a great year for everyone!
So yeah, I'll be smiling a lot lately.

You know you love me,
xx

Don't you just love Christmas?

Wrapping Christmas presents with colorful wrappers & ribbons, decorating the Christmas tree with sparkly lights & christmas balls, Shopping for gorgeous clothes for christmas! don't you just love preparing for Christmas? & in just 4 days it would be christmas again! I remember every christmas in our village, little kids goes caroline outside our house while they sing Joy to the world. Hearing Christmas songs just makes me remember all those. This Christmas I just want to forget everything & enjoy that day with my family & friends. Laughing like there's no tomorrow & being happy with all the Christmas presents that i've received. Although people forget that, Christmas is not all about giving presents or even receiving one but It's about the birth of Jesus. It's his birthday, so we should always remember that. So yeah, Merry Christmas & Enjoy!

Happy holidays!

xx

Needs to take a break.

I feel so absolutely down right now that I want to just lie in bed, watch drama movies on television while drinking hot cocoa with marshmallows on top or finish a pint of Ben & Jerry's as what I usually do when I'm sad. So many things happened to me today that I don't even wanna talk about. I just really need to take a break from all of these. I do hope Christmas Break will be a relief.. ugh, relaxing in a gorgeous beach, hearing the sea shores while getting myself tanned & the taste of strawberry milkshakes. I can't wait for christmas break! It's actually weird knowing that my family & I would spend christmas break in the beach! But yeah, I definitely need that. A break from everything! from chemistry, from worries & from everything. Anyways, I still can't wait for christmas!

You know you love me,

xx

TGIF.

So it was the friday night & spent it with only yours truly! Yeah, that's right I was at home the whole day sleeping at a friday night! I feel so accomplished. Ha-ha! So I slept the whole day & finished reading my third book of the L.A Candy series. I absolutely love that book. I was sad that it was the last book of the series. I was even in tears while reading the ending. (What a drama queen!) well because it was a happy ending, as every book ends with. So yeah, spent the night watching late night shows, finishing my book, pigging up a bag of chips with some cola, wow and I even said I was on a diet. Guess not. So after reading that book, I've learned that it's not easy to be rich & Famous as every girl dreams of, especially when you're in a reality tv! You can't act silly on cam or you need to be watching your words all the time. Well that's not actually what you call reality. Isn't it? But that's Hollywood! That's showbiz. It's not easy getting followed by the paparazzi while they flash their cameras. Being a reality star can get really tricky.

You know you love me,
xx

Supermodel.

Everybody has dreams, everybody wants to be someone in the future. Well I was one of those pretty little girls whose a big of a dreamer, I've always dreamed of being a Supermodel. I've always wanted to travel the world and visit the finest fashion places in the world like New York, Milan, Italy && most especially France. It has been my dream to work with a famous photographer and shoot for one of the high fashion magazines. Posing && smiling for cameras are my thing. Back when I was a little girl, I love taking pictures. I would play dress up with my little sister, put some make-up on, wear my mom's high heels and shoot as if it was a real photoshoot. There was also a time when I used my blanket and wrapped it all over me and pretended as if it was the most expensive dress in the world. I actually look up to those models who made big in this industry, I just love listening to their stories and how they got discovered. Those stories inspires me & motivates me to never give up in catching my dreams. Someday.. that could be me, that could be me strutting my way in the catwalk, that could be me being interviewed about how fabulous my life is. Right now, I bet there's a lot of other girls who also wanna be a Supermodel & that sometimes I look at myself & think that I could be different from all those other girls. I can't be just like them, You need to be unique in order for you to be a great model. Today, we have a really big industry in modelling so it would be hard to extract yourself from everyone else but then I thought that my personality is the only thing that could be different from every one else. I've learned a lot from Tyra Banks by just watching America's next top model. *giggles* I just love fashion & modelling. I love the feeling of walking and pretending that you're in a catwalk. The feeling when you focus on one direction and everything on your side just blurs out while going with the beat of the music. I love the feeling when you're feeling that energy in a photoshoot and do stuff that are just weird but makes a really good photograph! Weird things also work, honey.

xx

I'll keep on Dancing.

Have you ever heard of a teacher who discourages his student in her student's passion? Well meet my teacher. I can honestly say, dancing has never been something that i have in mind in the future or in my dreams, but right now dancing is my passion! No one knows that, since they never heard me mention it. Only because, it's like my hidden passion. I love dancing, I love moving my body with the beat of the music, I love the music that's making me dance, I love the classical ballet songs that makes me tip toe and raise my arm like a real ballerina, I love the feeling when you express your emotions through dance. I don't care if I'm not good at it, I just love dancing. Now i feel so upset and mad at the same time, that it's possible to have a teacher that discourages you to not follow what you love. I've always wanted to join the dance jazz club, but for some reasons I can't so i entered the cheering squad. Cheering has also been a part of me, a part of my life. Removing it from my high school life just feels so incomplete. I don't care whatever the people says, not even my teachers. I'll keep on dancing because it's a part of me.
So that's one secret you knew about me.

You know you love me,
xx

Living in a Dream.

Walking in Paris, seeing the Eiffel tower. Trying to absorb all the emotions that are in the paintings of Leonardo Da Vinci in the Louvre Museum. Working with the top agencies in Paris or Having a cup of coffee at Cafe de flore, while reading my favorite book. I've always wanted to do all of those when I go to paris, wish I can go there. but yeah, anyone can dream right?

You know you love me,
xx

Going back to History.

I've always dreamed of going to europe. Studying european history was my favorite, I felt like reading my world history book makes me go back to time. Going back to the time when Leonardo Da Vinci painted Mona Lisa or when Jan Van Eyck discovered oil paintings. There are so much to remember in the European History and going to Europe itself would make me see all those stuff that I studied.

Simple Things.

Sometimes you don't even notice the simple things around you that would make you happy, you don't value it that much but today i've realized that the simple things around you do make you happy. You will be stress-free if you don't worry about things to much, and you'll be happy when you appreciate the simple things around you. So from now on, I will value the simple things. <3

I wish.

Things right now are kind of okay, but then i start to worry about my grades again which makes everything still bad. I know I studied hard, I know what I wrote, but why is my grades still as low as a half cake? I honestly thought, it was a piece of cake but then i was left with only a bite of the cake. I hope you get me even if i know i'm talking non-sense right now.. Getting high grades is really important for me right now, cause i feel like if i get into a great school in college then that makes me one step closer in fulfilling my dreams. Although, sometimes it made me think.. am i really gonna reach my dreams? to walk in a catwalk, to be in the cover of one of the finest fashion magazines, to be known as a great model or if not to be known for something? i lost hope, when i expected my grades to be high, instead i saw a grade of average. I was a happy bee going to the parent-teacher conference and left like a bee who frowned because she didn't get honey. I was completely sad! I never knew my grades would be that low.. I keep saying "i'll study harder. I'll study harder.." like about 100 times but nothing happens which makes me really lose hope. but.. all i know is that i can't give up, not right now, not ever. If i really want this, then i would make it happen. High hopes for me!

You know you love me,

xx

S-I-M-P-L-E

Heels + skinny jeans + plain tank top + no makeup + tied hair = simply gorgeous.

trying to sleep.

so here i am, starring blankly at the screen of the laptop trying to find something to do to make me fall asleep, since i can't sleep and i' ll be leaving early tomorrow for a parent teacher conference. (cross-fingers for high grades) i can't sleep, and i barely even done my homework's and all i ever think about right now is to rest and enjoy this long weekend with having a white-mocha-frappuchino + tv + some frozen yogurt. I need some beauty rest but i can't sleep! oh gosh. it's already saturday tomorrow, then sunday, then monday... i don't wanna get up in the morning again and leave home early. i wish it was summer again!

You know you love me,
xx

Doo-da-doo life's good!

Doo-da-doo life's good! saying that phrase just makes you feel even better. Where as you woke up, went outside your house as the morning sunshine strikes you and as you smell the bloomfields and breeze outside your garden just makes you feel good and say that doo-da-doo life's good! having a venti-size-white mocha starbucks + shopping + good times will make me happy! I'm bubbly person, simple things makes me happy but also simple things makes me feel sad so easily but anyway, i don't wanna think about bad vibes I wanna be happy! Like what i said, i believe that the people who always smiles are the prettiest people. So come one, smile as if there's no tomorrow & think positive!

You know you love me,

xx

Walking with a pair of red heels.

It's been a long time since i last blogged. okay, so i've been trying to update my blog every now & then but then i was quite busy. Anyways, So here I am sitting in front of the computer at the business lounge at the airport & i can't wait to arrive at HK. I seriously need to shop a new pair of high heels! It's like a-must-have! but yeah, i'm still stuck here at the airport waiting for the plane. Our plane leaves like at 7 pm, 3 more hours to go.. ugh.
ohwell. i'll just get a plate of sushi. yuum.

You know you love me,
xx

When things go wrong.

Life's like a rollecoaster, It has ups and down but when you get scared, you just scream. Exactly when things go wrong, you just scream and let it go & Think Positive that everything will be okay. I've come to realize those things just recently, I had problems but then i thought that to be okay is to just look at the good side of it or probably just sleep it off or drink hot cocoa in the middle of the night. Think of something that would make you happy when you're down. Well, when I'm down I think eating would make me feel better & It always did! Praying also helped me a lot. It has been my deed to pray like every night. Trust me, it makes you feel a lot better! "When things go bad, go good" Cause when everything goes bad, why would you be bad too and make everything worse? So I strongly believe in that. Everybody has bad times & good times, so just go with it. Try to be happy when everything goes wrong & Try to be happier when things are right.

You know you love me,
xx

Goals?

Everybody has a goal in life or an aim for life. Nobody just wakes up in the morning and just do their work. You can't just sit there and do nothing & wait for a miracle to happen that's quite impossible! so better yet, do something right now. "Don't waste your time dreaming, do something to make it happen" Life's short, so as early as now start doing something that would actually help you achieve your goals. I've realized that if i just kept thinking that i would reach my goals, without doing anything & waiting for that time to happen, well nothing will happen. It's about time to change & wake up in reality! I honestly admit that, I lost courage & my strength. There was the time that all i thought about was "a passing grade, will do." That's not gonna work, honey. If all you think is doing good, then what about the best? Good isn't enough, do your best in everything! & I'm sure everything will be the best. Just like when we were those kindergarten, we get stars from our teacher that says either; good, better & best but my mom is always proud when i get the best! So choose, good better or simply the best?

You know you love me,

xx

Limelight

The first thing that comes to my mind when i hear the word limelight is fame or the spotlight! but what also comes to my mind is that if you're in the limelight would you be happy? Technically, yes cause you're in the spotlight. People talks about you or you're in the cover of gossip magazines and probably in the hit talk shows. People are curious about you're life, people wants to know more about you and stuff like that. I guess, that's the life of a celebrity! but it's not that easy, you have an image to protect when you're in the limelight. Some reporters or paparazzi can ruin you're life in just one click. They can make you look bad on cameras. Just like the book that i just recently read, L.A Candy by Lauren Conrad. I've learned so many things from that book. Basically, the book talks about two girls who got the opportunity to be in a reality-hit-show but turns out they weren't really happy about it. So, being in the limelight isn't really that good but if you just smile on cam-innocently, You might like the spotlight.

You know you love me,
xx

Money don't grow on trees.

okay, i have a MAJOR CRISIS! I'm spending too much money on shopping and I'm bankrupt! oh this is horrifying. I really should learn how to manage my money. gosh! & I only got a few money left. You know people works hard for money. So i thought of this business, I'll be launching my own collection of clothes in my mom's shop, it's limited edition actually. I thought of it like an investment that I need to invest the money left to something productive. Money don't grow on trees you know & you don't just pick them up. Case Solved!

You know you love me,
xx

Drama, blah blahs.

Did you ever felt like you wanna be like in old movies where you lie in bed, drinking hot cocoa with marshmallows on top while watching drama movies on television? That's oh-so-Audrey Hepburn! & Did you ever liked to wear a gorgeous black dress with red heels and eat breakfast at Tiffany's? Well, that is really an oh-so-Audrey Hepburn! I just love her. I wanna know how it's like to be her, whose life is full of dramas since she's also an actress. Just like Blair Wardolf, of gossip girl. That character was almost alike as mine and as Audrey Hpeburn! Wearing all those designer clothes, going to exclusive parties and eating breakfast at Tiffany's! When i go to Breakfast at Tiffany's i would sure do want my picture taken just like Audrey Hepburn's. (besides getting my picture taken in paris) hee-hee! alright, till next time.

You know you love me,
xx

Walking In The Catwalks In New York City Fashion Week

Ugh! that's like my ultimate dream! I've always wanted that. I always practice my walk and I pretend that I'm in a catwalk. I mean, i always do that. Going to the bathroom, walking in the mall and wherever. Who knows? someday that walk would be famous. * giggles. * you never know. Just say hello future!

You know you love me,
xx

Be Realistic or Go With The Flow Of Life?

I mean, sometimes you spend too much money and you're not being realistic. You may need that money in your future but all you think is that "I have money and I'll enjoy while it lasts" right? Come on, I'm sure you've also felt that way. The Question is would you be realistic or you would go with the flow of life? I honestly, don't know. I'm still a kid & i have so many questions that needs an answer & I know that someday I'll find the answer for that.. but for now, how could i deal with that? How will i know what's right and what's wrong? oh well, I'll just have to live with that until i find answers, but for now, I think that if i have money. I'll enjoy & spend that but I should make sure that there will be left for life savings. I'm a teenager-which is practically still a kid. so i need to enjoy life while I'm young so I think that's my theory of this topic. Case Solved!

xx

The Girl In Red Heels

I'm The girl in red heels. This is my very first blog so i want you to get to know me first. I'm a girl who has big dreams like every girl does. I love shopping, I love eating, I love writing.. I love so many things. I'm a girl who's full of dramas. (perhaps a drama queen?) I love how the sunshine strikes me at the morning which shows my beauty. I'm that girl who would wear something fashionable but sometimes simple. I love the people who makes me laugh and smile, i think they're the most important people. I love my family & friends and I'm afraid to lose them. I wanna be a model & a fashion designer & I love Alice Burdeu & Coco Chanel. I always wanted to go to NY and walk at the runways of New York City Fashion Week. Smiling & Posing for Cameras are my thing! I love my life. I believe that "a beautiful person is the one who is always smiling & is always positive" I also believe that "Life is like a roller coaster" it has ups and downs" & that God has a reason for everything. When I'm Sad I think that instead of being sad and emotional (listening to sad songs) I'll just be awesome instead, but of course i also need that time when i lie in bed while listening to slow songs, drinking hot cocoa and watch drama movies on television. I'm a drama person but at the same time a Happy Person. I think that the people who brings you down are the obviously the ones below you. So that's enought info about me.

You know you love me.
xx